This is beyond heartbreaking. I’ve read stories about suicide attempts and this gave me chills that still refuse to be warmed. I am praying for you and I haven’t actually prayed in a long time. I used to pray all the time and then just stopped.
You have allowed me into your world and the pain is searing. I understand the feeling of desperation that comes with roaming around a world that only you found by mistake. I still don’t know what the hell I am doing here. I question my existence daily.
You are a brave soul and beautiful beyond words. I have to believe that you will survive this. Thank you for opening up in such an incredible way. You made the choice to let us in and we will never forget that generosity.
Stay well — my friend.