I think my piece clearly outlines and honestly evokes the fact that I am not proud of my initial response to what happened to her. The way I feel is a symptom of being over-stuffed with all the ingredients that don’t add up to anything worth sampling.
I’ve been over-fed and I have no room for more. That being said — of course I feel bad that she was attacked. I also mentioned that sentiment in the piece.
What I am trying to convey goes a lot deeper than whether or not my day was ruined by her tragedy.