I am totally in your corner with this one. We are the same age and I swear the moment I turned 40, I lost the fundamentals that I relied on for reinforcement all my life.
My gorgeous black hair was replaced with gray and other things started to crumble without my consent.
I don’t recognize who I used to be and I miss her so very much. I am trying really hard to accept this new and lesser version of myself but it is so goddamn hard to say goodbye to the girl I used to know and love.
But, I guess this is part of what life offers those of us who live long enough to endure it.
It’s hard though. It’s very hard and I get you.